Up and down and up ...

While I always enjoy my delightful spin up the happiness mountain, what with its socializing and being extroverted, the recharging period of mental weakness and timidity are a bitch. Its not depression I don't think, but its not terribly enjoyable. This is why I hesitate to engage, why I keep the world at arm's distance. For all of the dazzling joy and energy I feel on the way up, balance must be restored. Balance restoration suuuucks. I never seem to get depressed first and then get happy. Well, I suppose I wouldn't know if that was the case as its a cycle. And when a follows b follows a, the original state is not derivable. And now that I have entered a state of self-analysis, I can probably go write some more code. Wooo. Not sure I'm up for responding about job hunt stuff though. Maybe tonight with a beer or three in me.